Frustration

Today has been a challenge for me!!! I am doing everything I know how to let go of my control. I told the one I care about a very serious secret the other night and now I don't know where we stand. At the time he took it very well, but now I'm not so sure. I asked him how he felt about it and he said he wanted to talk to me in person, but when given the opportunity he to talk he didn't take it, which leaves me at wtf? I get so tired of putting myself out there for no reason. I held back from this man for a long time in that I never would let him in to my heart. He confronted me about this and so I felt it was time for him to know, and now... I wish things were more crystal cut. I am so sick of dealing with this card I've been dealt and having to know that no matter how good of a person I am, some people will never except me. I feel like its being disfigured... People say they accept you to your face cause they don't want to hurt your feelings, but in actuality they aren't going to stick around. I am who I am... I am a great, confident, competant, independant, and loving!!! I have a lot of love to give and just need someone on my level who wants me for me to give it to. I have no control over what others think about me... Now all I have to do is accept that and be ok with it. I am ok with the fact that this particular man may or may not walk away, but grow up and tell me what your going to do cause I'm over the unknown!